On Apr 21, 2020, 11:41 PM, Papa wrote:
Hi X, I sent a thousand last night. Let me know if you got it. Love, Papa
On April 23, 2020, 9:51 AM, X wrote:
I did get it, thank you so so much!
It’s been a little uncertain around here for the past 2 days, since the NZ government decided how the lockdown would proceed here.
We’re moving from level 4 to level 3 on 4/27, which isn’t much of a change. We’ll be allowed to travel a bit locally, but travel between major cities is still discouraged. Most of the shops will still be closed, and we are advised to stay in our “bubble” through the level 3 lockdown. Right now, level 3 is scheduled to end on May 11.
I feel like things are still a crazy in the U.S., and i think i’ll reschedule my ticket home for late May. The earliest flight home after May 11 is May 23! There aren’t many options right now. From the number of cases in the U.S., i think it’s safer here in NZ. Thanks for the help with lodging – that will be so useful over the next month. From what i see online, L.A. will reopen around 5/15, so if i wait until late May to return, i’ll be able to stay in hotels and travel easily as i drive home.
I sure hope things will be calmer by then. I was so happy to hear about your birthday celebration!! Sounds like you found some great ways to enjoy the day despite our current restrictions. Much love, X
On April 23, 2020, 10:46 AM, Papa wrote:
Dear X, I miss you, but I advise you to stay until late May also. The reason I sent more money is that your hand will not be forced to leave prematurely. Your email confirms what I feel, that you should stay a bit more in NZ.
I’ll help you out. Don’t worry. If you are running low don’t be shy to ask. Love, Papa
On April 23, 2020, at 10:49am, X wrote:
Hi Mama! So, i’ve decided to extend my stay until your birthday! They only have one or two flights a week in May, and nothing at all from may 9 to may 23, so your birthday seemed like the luckiest day. What do you think?
I still don’t know what to do about my P.O. box, but that’s my only major problem in the US. Air New Zealand was kind enough to change my ticket without charging extra! I will continue to float around here, and hopefully, things will be better in the US in a month. Here, we are on level 4 lockdown until the 27th, and then level 3 until May 11. I think it’s very interesting that our lockdown started exactly on the new moon. Love, X
On April 23, 2020, 4:23pm, Mama wrote:
Darling X, I think it is a good idea to fly with Air New Zealand. It is definitely would be cleaner air inside of the plane for so many hours, unlike it could be with American fakers!
Just get as many as you are able of masks and gloves which you will need in the USA on your trip driving back home. Please, be safe! The rest would fall into its place!
I wish you good luck and a good horoscope for your traveling and the time that you have left in NZ! Enjoy each moment of it! Love, a lot, and some more, Mother
On April 24, 4:28pm, Mama wrote:
Hello, X! I just do not know from what to start! I am so upset and worry for you I can’t sleep and I can’t function as a human because of the lack of sleep and headache!
The other thing bothers me: why you are always put me in a place of stupid with the facts and never consult first, take advice, and then act? It is disrespect grafted in you by Father. But I always hope [like an idiot would] it will air out of you!
No! You are always do something outrageous and put it in front of my face. And then look for my reaction.
What reaction you want to see?! You are an adult person and doing stupid after stupid decisions – what can I do or say?
DON’T DO IT?! It is already done! Oh! WHY?
WHY you are always doing it to me? Why you trust Father more than me?
I did only one stupidity: marrying him. But I changed it when the time has come. HE does stupidity after stupidity in the row every goddamn day and you are still thinking it is right
On Friday, April 24, 8:03PM, Mama wrote:
OK! It was a draft I thought to put on the screen and hoped never to send it to you. But really, are you enjoying shocking me?! Anyways, I think in this catastrophe they are allowed to change the ticket at least twice. Just go ahead, call them and say that your state is still closed up and you would want to prolong the visa and the ticket. and maybe, [I know, it is not fun and it is hard!] but find a job to support yourself there. I do not understand why you are in such a hurry to come here: you do not have here any loving husband, no children depending on you, you do not have even home! And work?! It is a disaster here worse than at the great depression was. as of yesterday it is 66 million people claimed unemployment! last week was only 22 million and we thought it is a lot!
Your car is in a relatively safe place. Your storage – you are paying every month- it is safe, too. Your Post office box! OK! Ask Father to do something about it! Remind him that you were a good daughter to him [better than to me, though!] for the last 39 years! If he will be sleazeball about it tell me and tell me the address where it is! we will go there but after May 15, when my partner will be allowed to travel and out of his quarantine thing. I hope we will figure it out and pay for it! Oh! Why you never did forward it to me from the beginning?!
Why you hate me so much that you can’t trust me, me, your bloody Mother? Why you must make your life so complicated each time you turn around?! It is hard to be this way! Really! Clean your heart from the hate for me and free yourself for a new life without the hatred for Mother: you will see how much space there will be emptied for you for breathing and moving freely!
Here are two people in the world, can you imagine?!- who truly love you: me, and your sister! Surprise, surprise! And you trying your best to hurt us by doing everything opposite of what we telling you to do! Why?! The syndrome of the superior older sister in action? The discrimination towards Mother who doesn’t know English, so, it is not worthy to listen to her?! Stop your arrogance toward us it brings you to all kinds of stupid, aren’t you tired of it?!
You are looking for the harmony in all kind of wrong places -get the harmony with your REAL tribe, Mother and sister who do love you genuinely, not fake, not pretend because we need from you something! Father, I don’t sure, he has more money to prove there something, but I am sure if he does anything it is because he hopes that there will be someone to “bring him a cup of water” when he will be a frail f****er. It is always some strings attached there.
I listen to two different witches about the horoscopes and they said a lot of the changing your way of thinking, changing your life perspective, lifestyle but nothing about traveling for you in May! But both of them said: it is a danger there for you after May 13? 22, or 21-Beware of sharp objects, and beware of stupid drivers on a road. All the month would be tensed, so calm down yourself with yoga and meditations. Maybe, some honest prayers to GOD will be helpful.
No one can kick you out of the place there – it is against the LAW of THEIR LAND. But, I would stop behaving like a loser and stay in the same room with Jessica, a butt stinker and not leveled bitch. You must find a safer place, room for yourself. It puts you down, it is against the GOD’s will. It is against all the laws of cleanliness, kashrut, against everything that God said it supposed to be. Dirt, stink – is a sin, stop living in it! It suppresses your spirit, your soul – hurts your self-esteem so hard, it makes you do inadequate decisions, don’t you see it?!
Why you are always letting people walk over you and after that running to me to flush me with your rage? Did I ever do it to you? NO. Then, why do you think it is pleasant to me to be a subject to your rage? Stop it, X, grow up! It is enough to behave like a teenager! You are 39-year-old Lady – think and behave accordingly!
All that I am telling you because I really want you to stay in the NEW ZEALAND. Just, as all wealthy people do. They are paying so many millions to get there and not everyone can even get there. GOD put you there and you are running into the Hell on the Earth. WHY? To crash into my one-bedroom apartment? Or, again, clean someone’s stupid house in order to stay under the strange and creepy peoples’ roofs? It is not ending to this! You do not have money and not a job to support yourself here.
GOD gives you an opportunity to start life from a clean page and you are running away from HIS MERCY! It is hard to start living in the new country, I know it from my own experience, you do not need to explain it to me on fingers! But, if you tried – you actually can make a better life for yourself there than here- you can find a job, a respectable job for yourself as a teacher of yoga, as you wanted and be respected as a human.
Here, your chances to do the same are -0.000% now. It was hard for you when everything was alright and now what you think? you will not even get Section 8 housing because of the homelessness now is 10 000 000 times higher than when you left several months ago! People lose their job = lose the house- where they all go? to the section 8. And priorities are for families with children!
I do not see the bright future for you here for about two years, at least! You just sitting there on the island, refusing to read or listen to the news, like an ostrich, putting head in the sand, just because I said to not do so! It does not matter – you read it or not – it EXISTS!
DO you want to live in this kind of country? If you can, please, stay there you will be safe and be saved there, with intelligent people and the government around you. What is really REALLY I afraid of is the fact, that you have to drive here from CA. Everywhere are tornados, floods, natural fires, and disasters on your way and I do not know how you may avoid them!
But the most – the most of all which put me into the frenzy, into the shock, paralyzing fear – are protesters against the closeup, roaming around with the guns, semi-automatic rifles like unleashed satans looking for the innocent victims! It is all on your way home: it doesn’t matter what route you take: to the south or north, or east, or center from CA you would meet them.
It makes my skin crawl. I do not know what else I can tell to stop you from it now. I can’t trust God to save you there: it is just against God’s Will to go to Hell and demand God to save you from the fire.
In the Bible, it says: “DO not tempt God.” -it is a situation. No other. I just do not understand: why everything with you must be so difficult for me? You are always were so smart. It is so simple. So obvious to me: God gave you unprecedented opportunity to be in New Zealand at the right time to the second to save your soul, your body, your mind, and you are instead running into the Hell.
Why such an urgency?! Who is calling you here? Father? Your ex-husband? Your ex-husband’s stupid bitch mother? Her dad? I think he is dead, I think I saw her post, but I’m not sure I didn’t read it.
It doesn’t matter to me who does it – you must know – they have their agenda to humiliate you here now. I do not see anything good for you here now. We are fucked up – let you come and sit in our doo-doo together! What fun will be! Ha-ha-ha! What happiness… for satans! All the clever and kind people want you out of here in NZ, and all the evil people want you here, in the USA, the leading country for the death from COVID-19! Don’t you see it?!
I think you have no clue where you are running to! Do you think you are tired to be closed up there? Here we are all will be under the lock until June or worst and then it will be the second, worst wave of the virus in September, we’ll sit in isolation for another winter. There in NZ, at least some nature to look at. Here is a curfew hour at 8 pm, and the fine of $ 500-$ 2000 and one-year jail for disobeying the new rules. but you do not see the news, so, you do not care.
If you came back, you would sit with me for 24 hours a day and hate me with all of your might but nothing you will be able to do with it! And go out they not allowed. Rent? you will not be able – it is a new price here. You will desperado stick yourself again to some basement with creep as a landlord over your soul just to show me: you can do it! WHY?!!!
It is NOT the USA as you left. It is a new dictatorship here. It is more Rushka than the land of free as you remember it! I hope you will hear my soul. I hope God will give you wisdom and show you the way to save yourself. I hope you will reject the arrogance and allow Him to show the WAY, and not block HIM as you do it to me.
I hope I can sleep, maybe, not really. God bless you, all of your thoughts and actions. He shall protect you from all evil-minded people and ill devised influences. He will give you His guidance, and His wisdom. His Angels shall protect you every moment of your life from everything wrong.
Love, Mother https://finance.yahoo.com/news/needed-rich-americans-activate-pandemic-113902645.html I better close this book now.